my chemical resurrection

Hello

2005-09-07T12:47:00.000+08:00

Wonder if she noticed me.
Hope she does,
bye bye

Happy birthday to me

2005-08-31T20:11:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my birthday.

And boy,was it fun.
I didn't get anything,not even a cake from my parents,and none of them wished me a happy birthday.
I reserve my thanks to my FRIENDS,who at least wished me a happy birthday.
And my SISTER,HARYATI MEGUMI BINTE (I DUN WANNA SAY),WHO GAVE ME CHOCOLATES AND WAS THE ONLY PERSON IN MY FAMILY THAT WISHED ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
That was all i ever needed.Thanks,sis.I really appreciate it.=)
Well,now its back to the same old life now.
Fuck it.
This life is screwed.

Damn the man

2005-08-23T20:06:00.000+08:00

DAMN.TODAY WAS A ROUGH DAY.

Well,it got better in the afternoon lol.I got caned in the morning.And yesterday my mom had to come to my school for a heart-to-heart talk with my school's (head of staff??).Because i dared gerard to steal.Wtf.Honestly,i think that was stupid.Goddammit.Anyways,yeah got caned once.It was quite okay compared to the ones i faced during sec 2.Lol those were the days man.Gah.Downloading gunz online now.Guess what..
IT'S SO FUCKING SLOW DAMMIT F*&^1^%5$3*!!!!!!!!11oneone.
Damn.Hope jun's,si kiat's and daguo's case doesn't get too fucked up.I wonder if the police are sick and tired of juvenile delinquency cases already.
Haha
I mean,i'd get pretty pissed off too if i had to do fucking paperwork for every single case that comes simultaneously.
LOL
Alright,imma go count the number of hairs on my (just)shaved legs now.
Till then,
Cheers,dick.

WOOHOOO NEW POST!!11oneone.

2005-08-19T17:48:00.000+08:00

FINALLY A NEW POST!!!11oneone.

Sorry avid fans of mine,i have not(or never) been updating at all these days/months/years?.
BUT,i am now.hohoho.Using a school computer and just goofing around watching russell peters video clips,playing roflcopter and checking thru friendster.Having some kind of video course which i've not been attending.Haha.
So how have you guys been?My blog is VERY interactive,so for replies,please please please leave your shit in the tagboard. =) .
Right,i got to go cause the teacher's gonna dismiss us soon.I hope.DAMN THE MAN.
Alright,till then,
Cheers!

Para-para

2005-03-16T23:54:00.000+08:00

Boy,Diana sure can dance.
Let's para-para our way to eternal techno high,gang!
Back from a 3hree day 2wo nights chalet at downtown east.Let's just say,i'm tired.VERY FUCKING TIRED.
Well,at least i got to hold darling's hand again..Heh..
Sometimes i wonder..If not for friendster..from shazana to nash to cash to diana to darling...I'd not be the happy guy i am today. =)
Then emo sia yuji.Basket..
I'm in love,with the world,through the eyes,of a girl.
I love darling.
yay!!11oneone.

Me and Fa_ _ _ _ n

2005-03-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

School tomorrow.Darn.And i thought i just took my O level results.
Bummer.
Yeah,have not been updating these few days(or this week?).Kinda busy with school.And i don't have that much free time left because my malay teacher likes to give me detention.I don't know why,but she just does.Maybe she's some evil dementoid mutant that hates hot guys like me.Okay,so not-so-hot guys like me,but still hot.Sorry kids,narcissist is back in action.HOHO.bah screw her.

Hmm.I think i'm beginning to like reality now =).
I think SHE'S the one.heh.Okay,i gotta do my homework.Ciao people.

Thinking of her?..heh
"All i wanna do,is grow old with you.. <3"

Mudbath

2005-02-26T18:53:00.000+08:00

Listening to:Hide's last song-X japan.
Mood:Bored

Okay,that intro sucked.
Well,today i'm finally posting.My computer was down the past few days(or weeks).Sorry guys,i know you love me and my angst-ridden and narcissistic rants.I shall elaborate on that much later.Right now,i'm tired
Had cross-country thingy just now. 4.8 kilometres.I was running with kay hien at the beginning of the race.Yeah,he said i could go ahead,so i went ahead.Not into that competitive shit anyway.I'm not a jock.Ran in the rain.Best feeling.I could've been in an ad for evian.Literally watering myself..wait..not everyday.But still.Erm.Nevermind.Went to eat with the guys,then go kay hien house,play game like there's no tomorrow.He had tuition today at 5.30 .And he forgot.Baka.
About yesterday's outing.Yeah,twas fun.We all went to victoria concert hall and acted like rich british bastards smoking on cuban cigars and drinking fine wine.Ok cancel the cuban cigars and fine wine.I borrowed cash's blazer for a while,skanked wearing it and i liked it.I think the others did.I'll stick to that.hehMod posers r0x0rz!.Thank you for the $12.50 nash.heh.This is how i looked like yesterday.(Stolen from nash's blog,once again)

Try to find me.Okay la i end here.Bye bye.Oh yeah,i think my heart's finally softening up.heh. =) <3

20856901

2005-02-13T22:26:00.000+08:00

Valentine's eve.

with nobody to spend it with.Well,at least i'm going for sushi with the gang.

Hooray for sakae!
bye -_-*

Music nation and a few sotongs

2005-02-06T23:41:00.000+08:00

Today,i performed.Yay!11one.No wait,i was only carrying timmy,diana's electric guitar.
Shoot me.
Hung out with cashvin,diana and nash/nat/natasha(anything'd do).Went to subc theatre JUST TO SEE E.M.O PERFORM.And paid fucking $6.50 for it.Well,i paid four bucks.Nash topped up the rest.Thanks nash.I owe you ALOT.I'll pay it all back when i can.And yeah,sorry ah nash,i joking only sia just now.Lac ah,if you reading this i'm sorry eh.Seribu ribu ampun tuanku.K that one finish,now about yesterday.Btw,i want to be a cool gadget freak like diana.I'm already cool but i need to know about gadgets!LOL.Crapper for life sia this idiot.
Yesterday was kinda fun,with the moshing,and meeting friends and all,but the sucky part was.My specs broke while moshing.Damn.That bit a chunk out of my ass..Ungodly barbarians took pills and got high and moshed in the bloody pit.The funny part was,there was tension between the organisers and the moshers/bodysurfers.At one point,the porkpie hat guy(organizer),said that "due to security reasons,the gig will be cancelled now.NOW.".We were all like,wtf wtf wtf and started chanting "refund!refund!refund!" like a gandhi revolution re-enactment or something. -_- .And yeah,some atreyu-shirt-clad goth clown fag punched around and went back out of the moshpit.He almost got into a fight with one of the guys in the pit.No wait,is it he or she?.Ah,who gives a fuck anyway.Fagadelic.Pa-parum-pam-parum.Supposed to go drinking with ahmad but didn't.Didn't meet up after the gig.And yea bla bla bla.I got school tomorrow.
fuck it.
i wanna try the bearpapa cream puff thingo.Anyone wants to savour the moment with me?
Oh god i sound corny.Shit.Okay bye people.
One more thing,nash,sorry la wei.Don't drama now la.I scared sia.

Gig

2005-02-05T23:56:00.000+08:00

Tired,i'll update tomorrow.

Goodnight =)

Toufa

2005-02-03T16:43:00.000+08:00

Arrived school late.
AGAIN.
Must've been the pills.Shit,i can't even arrive on time now.Thank you.
Served detention,and during detention and the bus home,composed something.Criticize if you must,but you'd the the self-centred big bloated ass,not me.
BLOOD SOAKED ROSES.
I painfully remember,our last sunset together
Trying to squeeze every single second,into time that was ours
We stared into the bright starlit sky,you just had to say goodbye.
You just had to.
Now i'm drowning my lungs in this bottle,still trying to forget.
The day that you last spoke to me,the day that we first met,
and i regret.
All the letters that i wrote.
All those three words that i spoke.
The thought of you just makes me choke
To think all of this was just a hoax

Blood-soaked roses line this memory lane
the rust has made me sick,the pills fucked up my brain.
Would you remember me like the lyrics of a love song?
I know,you said,you weren't an angel all along.

Listen now,can't you hear?
The vociferous whispers and the silent screams
these cracks,the sounds of my heart breaking
Why won't you let me die in peace?
Just let me go,with this last poison kiss.

Blood-soaked roses line this memory lane
The rust has made me sick,the pills fucked up my brain
Would you remember me,like the lyrics of a love song?
I know,you said,you know i'm dead,you were never an angel all along.

Composed.

2005-02-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

Came late for school.(school's for fools!!)

Okay,so i came late for school,bla bla.Second time these two months.Lol and the school's limit for latecoming before serious action is three times a YEAR.Asswipes i tell you.Got detention.Well,not THAT serious detention but had one hour detention.Yeah i know,i'm leading you in circles.Kinda like an endless loop of badger badger badger badger badger badger hamster mushroom MUSHROOM!.
Saw some outlandish people wearing yellow caps near the jtc as well.I don't know what the fuck they were doing there since morning when i was in 51 to school,and in the afternoon when i was again,in 51 from school.They're weird.I don't like them.
Creepy shit,ya know?.
Okay,enough procrastinating,i'm off to bed.goodnight.

vociferous whispers and inaudible screams

2005-02-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

Spent the whole morning before recess stoning sleepily.

I never smiled.

Not until i realised that,well.Nothing's worth getting that depressed over.

Oh well.

And,i don't have a fetish for hamsters.
That one's for you,nadirah.HOHO
"here i go..scream my lungs out,try to get to you,you are my only one."
goodnight.

My life sucks ass,seriously.

2005-01-31T22:46:00.000+08:00

Took a walk downstairs,got a can of coke and sat on a bench at the playground.Alone.
I just found out something new today.They're so happy together.
I wish i didn't care.
But i do.
My discman was the only sanctuary of mine.Repeating hawthorne height's "ohio is for lovers" and matchbook romance's "tiger lily".Over and over again.
I had to admit,the morning dew came early tonight.
I feel so useless.

"Because you kill me,you know you do,you kill me well.You like it too and i can tell.You never stop until,my final breath is gone."

"These words,as they roll off my tongue,I say goodnight,as my mourn is sung"

This is what love has made me become.
Have a nice <3 ,and i hope you throw away your razors for good.

Vodka monster

2005-01-30T10:27:00.000+08:00

Ah shit.I got a fucking
Hangover
Hangover
Hangover.
And i'm still bloody online at this time of day,when i should be puking my guts out.Well,i puked three times last night.Lucky everyone was sleeping.Now my head's getting better.It's not beating that fast anymore.
Okay,so yesterday they passed me some vodka.I figured a few drinks won't hurt anyone..and wtbfh do you know it,my face went all red after six shots of it(mixed with some other drinks la).My light-headed hallucinations didn't get the better of me.I was lucky.When i reached home,with my face all red,my dad saw and BEAT THE HELL OUT OF ME.K bluff.Nobody saw that i was drunk.Though i walked pretty much like a zombie.kept my head down and went to the toilet straightaway.Checked my face and eyes.Both were red,but my eyes made the most visibility.Bloodshot shit.No wonder my eyes were beating hard.And yeah,made some warm milk and went to sleep.I couldn't sleep,had a bloody headache.Woke up three times to regurgitate the alcohol.And yeah,slept soundly.Now i'm hungry.

Oh yeah,the vodka sucked.Don't talk about it.
Have a pleasant afternoon =)

2005-01-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

You Are 18 Years Old

18

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Haha.I can drink and smoke and club and watch m18 movies now.You can't.BOO YOU!
Okay,that was exhilarating.Let me try that again some other day.

Turpentine trio

2005-01-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

Today was..well..okay.

T'was a good day i suppose,with all the cock-talking about the "good 'ol times".

2e7 2003,best class ever in my krss history.Memories of the stupid stuff we all did, =) .

Okay wait,i'm contemplating on whether to choose 2e7 or 3e10 as best class.BAH whatever.
Anyway,i'm still stuck at secondary three.Yes,i fucking retained.Sadly,this is a wake up call for me.
(and i'll breathe you in,you are my oxygen alone...)
Okay,this is getting nowhere.Sometimes i wonder why i'm so dumb.Uhh,pure nonchalant-iness i suppose.Inexplicably,I am actually SMART!
I'm just lazy.booo you.
Me and hakim wanna form an indie rock band.We need a bassist.Anyone up for it?

Have a nice day ahead.
cheerios ;

The eternal end of everything

2005-01-26T20:32:00.000+08:00

Today was tiring..some house practise shit after school,then soccer AFTER that.

I got ard 5.30 or sth for the 1.2 km run.

Damn,i really need to get back in shape.

Or emily'll be so sad not seeing me run for cassio this year.NYAAHHA.

Didn't bring my house tee and p.e shorts.Had to run in uniform haha.All sweaty and shit.And the afternoon was hot.I like pie.There were four fair young maidens giving out tickets for qualifications or something like that at the school gate.I got a pink ticket,but i wanted blue.I WANT BLUE!.Okay,so a pink ticket's better than nothing..Bah,who'd give a flying fuck anyway.

Went to eat ice kacang+rojak after house practise.And after the refreshingisticalisticaments,went to pandan.Play some playground soccer.Just reach home only,must go out again.Go take stuff from aunt's house.And here i am,pouring my heart onto these rooftops..I'm hungry.
Cheers !

Kasih tak sampai

2005-01-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

Indah..terasa indah
Bila kita terbuai dalam alunan cinta
Sedapat mungkin terciptakan rasa
Keinginan saling memiliki
Namun bila itu semua
dapat terwujud dalam satu ikatan cinta
Tak semudah seperti yang terbyang
Menyatukan perasaan kita...

Tetaplah menjadi bintang di langit..
Agar cinta kita akan abadi..
Biarlah sinarmu tetap menyinari alam ini..
Agar menjadi saksi cinta kita berdua..
Berdua...

Sudah..terlambat sudah..
Kini semua harus berakhir
Mungkin inilah jalan yang terbaik...
Dan kita mesti relakan kenyataan...ini..
Menjadi saksi kita berdua...

Padi-kasih tak sampai.
This song made me feel bad.Like a disease in my heart,purging all "real world ethics" I live by.I wish i could just....Is this my reality?
Is this YOUR reality?...
"Mungkin inilah jalan yang terbaik".Mungkinkah?... < / 3

Happy-ness monster

2005-01-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

Okay,so it DID come out.
I'm loving myself already.
Goodnight people!

Dammit

2005-01-23T13:43:00.000+08:00

I just changed my layout.Some beatles shit,but it just won't come out.
WHY???.
This sucks.I am SO html-illiterate.fuck.
Have yourself a fucking pleasant afternoon la.

supperman

2005-01-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

First time using blogspot.Just disowned my blogdrive account.On my way to blogging victory.Now wait here while i try to fucking get this site working prim and proper.bye bye (= .